~Note of heart~

Note from my diary~13 Mei 2011~

I know God...

i must be understand

this is Yours

i am Yours

my life is yours

my heart is Yours..

i am nothing...not have everything..

i am borrow my life from You

i am not ready 4 give it back this time

i need life, i want still stand..i want still see Your world

i am not ready to go

i wanna see my handsome dad

i wanna hear my bubling mum

i stiill wanna listen my loving friends voice

i still wanna see around 

i love them very much

please God i am not ready to go...~

i am afraid afraid afraid

what can happen to me?

not this time i am really nor ready

why me?? i  am sorry... 

i not prepare for leave and find You

i am small here
i am dirty

always make mistakes

please give me chance God

i need it...

please...please..please..

if You still wanna me

what can i do??

i cant to run

i cant to cry

i caNT do anything...

because this heart not mine

i wish i will get peace 

please make it easy for i gone God

i am sorry dad, mum, friends 4 everything

i accept whatever You want....

i am just human full in weakness ....~